the longer i live, the more i want to die

the deterioration of the human heart and soul is not so astounding as it once was. somewhere along the way we have forgotten the severity of the purpose to which we were called. this terrifying truth leads me to the harsh reality that i face daily - the depravity of the world. i do not desire to live in this world any longer and most certainly not of this world. but the life i now live is not my own, i gave it to the One Who gave His life for me. i shall not take my life for it is His, though i pray He will soon call me home. however, until then i must live as He has called. we are called to love, forgive, serve, bless, shine, pray, rejoice, sing, give, believe, know, worship, understand, praise, submit, guard, thank, hope! His purpose for our lives is much greater than that which i would attempt to condense for my blog. one thing however rings loud above all else. ephesians 4:29 - "let NO corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." i desire purity above all else. purity of heart, of mind, of soul, of body, of thought, of every essence of my being. may God be glorified in everything. if i should fail, call me out with "4-29."

writing

you may be surprised to hear that two of my greatest passions are writing and reading. i prize the Holy Bible above all else and yet i tend to lose myself so easily in the words of others. this was in fact quite a dangerous hobby in my younger years as i dabbled in all sorts of nonsensical writings. i have since learned to hold the words of others in light of the truth of Scripture. however, this was not so easy during my impressionable years. whereupon i put my faith in the words of those i most misunderstood. it seemed to me that such madness beyond my sense of understanding must therefore be profoundly true. i later realized that such great faith had been so far misplaced. however, this deep belief in what i could not understand fueled my fire for faith in the truth. not that i claim now to understand the truth, in fact, i am relieved to discover that God is far greater than i could possibly know or even imagine. the more i know Him, the more i know that i don't know Him.

Here goes nothing...

So, you've got to start somewhere and I guess now is as good a time as any. It has been an eventful weekend thus far. Last night I went to my sister-in-law's birthday party at Thunderworld and had some amazingly good cake made by Chandra Herron (I need to check the spelling on that). And look how beautiful it is. She will make one for you if you like...just let me know if you want her info.



After bowling we went to see The Dark Knight. An action packed movie with a captivating plot. This morning we ventured out to Knoxville to find The Shrimp Dock. Hold your breath...unless of course you enjoy the smell of fresh seafood, in that case have fun, I'm going to wait in the car. We had a seafood boil with crab, shrimp, corn and potatoes. Oh yes, and mussels. I'm not too fond of the mussels though. After supper, of course there was dessert...chocolate chip cookies...a staple in my home. Then we watched The Freedom Writers. I think that is truly what has inspired me to keep this blog. I've been bashful with my love of words, so I shall forewarn you that this may not quite be what you expected. I will try to use words in the way in which they have been defined but you must know that this will be a challenge as this is not my style.
Later dude, HH